The emotional day, wednesday!
Date: Wednesday, May 27, 2009
oh..today i don't know why, i became very emotional!! at first i was like okok..but then when suddenly i recieved rui ying massage i become like why my world had gone upside down le?? because we had actually promised each other that if one is out of the NDP the another one will follow that person to be out too..even throught that person had been selected for the NDP and i was really fed up!! why does like everytime people does thing and don't keep to their promised..i everytime does the thing and keep my promised..and that's why i'm always beling bully and also being left out ba??!! Most of the time if my friends ask me to do something and if it within my limit and also, if it nothing bad, i'll of course help them and, i can tell you even there something happen, i often will not like break my promised to that someone loh..
then next is that my STUPID MODULE!! THE PEEE it like the one i actually i understand but when the STUPID LECTURER further explain it..during tutorial, i was like WTH what is she explaning??!! then everything like seems very fan to me le..plus, i see many people who wear the suit that like they left school leh, it time for university !! then this make me even more fan, i was thinking like why can't i born early or why must i still suffer here?!! i really don't know what happen to me loh..
fianlly, last is due to that MR PAT! who mostly last minute tell me say he cannnot make up and like feel very sorry..but i don't wanna this sorry!! i wanna a good excuse!! but he just tell me that oh i had become the camera man so cannot meet you guys up!! it was like he can pass the camera to someone right?? they can also take the picture right?? but why must he does it when he say that he wanna watch movie with us @ the 1st place?? also before he give me that call actually he say he is going down a little later than me, and tells me to hurry down cause the tickets is wih me then i can go change and we can watch the movie comfortable loh..but in the end he end up not there and i just watch it with rui and her sis only..>.< then nevermind, i wanna someone to accompany me to go buy a pair of shoe then i actually ask pat after i had 'fought' with him in the sms..but then he just give me an answer that hurts me alot!!GO BUY YOURSLEVE!! i was damm sad, he cannot make it nevermind, but at least can like follow me go buy shoe right?? but no..then later i went to ask rui then she say oh cannot she need to go home..hey, am i like so bother to everyone of you?!!i really wonder...it like no one really likes to be with me loh, like i'm just some burden to most of you there..
really this hurts me alot!! i wanna just someone follow me for a while but cannot find one..all reject me..i really wonder what every of you that say that you are my friends..what you guys are thinking?? are you guys just entertaining me or just really like me as friend?? i really hope i can get an answer soon..i really wanna know that you all like me as friend and not entertain me only..oh now i only hope that i can clear all my doubt about all this..really, now feeling too tired le..so signing off,sweet dreams and night guys^^ by:fang yi...^^
~With Love,Fangyi~