just daydreaming,but hoping it can be true>.<

Date: Friday, June 05, 2009

well, recently, i'm chasing a show called 'boys over flowers' and really i admire the girl who is the main female actress..her thoughts of helping others who are weaker her..i really wanna to be like her>.< but often become i'm the one who is being bully sian..hahas..

nevermind,then in this show, she has a wired dream in 1 of the esposide, dreaming of she will met two guys in her life,one is her soulmate and another one is her future husband..hahas..really lah, her dream is so true..and really, i so like this show, it like another cinderella story,but different version and change a bit..oh, my favourite..when i was small, i really wish that i wanna to live in fairly tale like cinderella who lives happily ever after whith her prince^^ hahas..but i know this will not appear for me de..cause i know somethings you just need to fight for it so that you can get it!! but for me well, i really don't think i can have the courage to fight it and to get it..i maybe even doesn't have the courage to like take this kind of hard challenge on..because i really see many cases around me who end up living unhappy and everyday fight..just because of small reson!! it really make me feel afraid of relationship, so i just can say, ithink i only can day-dream ba..

ya, day-dream is better ba, i can dream like no fighting just lovely-dovely together..and living happily ever after..hahas..

oh ya, by the way, just now during msn,that SI BAO XIONG 'fought' with me again..really leh,both of us really had different working styles..haiyo..and thoughts too and we really often fought over some issues..it like we often crash with each other idea!!but it not that i wanna fought with him, i got my stand and i wanna say it out and wanna it to be use that's it!! and he say what i always think negativly!! hey if i were doing that i can tell you, i will be crying everyday le..like my last time..then also, i may even would be so open up to all my friends i will definatly kept all the things and bottle up inside my heart because i'll just feel that people wouldn't bother about me..cause i'm just NOBODY and that's is really what i really really think and feel!! so ya, if you wanna see my last time just come tell me loh..and i mean seriously, i can be damm emotional and you better don't regret hor!! i'm telling you now MR BX!! BETTER GET IT CLEAR..WANT ANYTHING JUST TELL ME STRAIGHT AND IF I CAN DO IT AND YOU WANNA SEE IT I SURE WILL DO IT DE!! i'm that person who keep my promise..so don't let me break my promised!! i promised myself i wouldn't go back and i'll make sure i'll never will!! this is it..BLEAH!! no matter how matter how many times you discourage me, i'll still laugh and smile infornt of you!! hahas..so let's see who will survive then...hehes..

so ya, that's it for today le^^night guys and have a sweet dream..ya,by the way, holiday coming..next week.so looking forward!! play,study,and enjoy..hahas..ya so signing off..by:fangyi^^( oh it had been about i think 3 or 4 days le, the cold war between my parents..hope they will soon talk if not really i'm going to scream out loud le!!)

~With Love,Fangyi~