what am i really doing?
Date: Tuesday, July 07, 2009
well, this few days i had been like dammn tired leh..i am not sure why..totally because 1st of all maybe it is due to my lazyness or maybe it is my illness acting again.. because i feel like i'm back to my secondary 5 fellings like very tired wanna kill myself so that i wouldn't suffer already it really like dammn living hell i guess most of you don't know about this kind of feeling because my medical fees is already over thousand plus,plus the kind of medication you need to ate everyday it really making me suffer and i really don't like it at all and it also ruin my future like i maybe cannot get pregnant and also, i cannot stop taking my medication until i die..so is this dammn serious..i really hate this kind of stuff..haiz..then plus this few days need to rush out my autocad and also idea plus my ONOW..haiz.. so really i feel like dammn stress up and fed up because i feel like i'm not doing something sometimes and also sometimes i just feel like why i do this huh?? it like really thoughts flying over here and there like siao!! and it really making me very wired..like a stupid siao.. and sometimes this few days i like not myself and i often speak things that i don't even understand what i'm talking about loh..haiyo.. very sian..i really don't know what i'm doing leh..totally..can anyone tell me..or is it really time that i need rest le..stop forcing myself too much on things that i don't like??
~With Love,Fangyi~