what happen during this few days?
Date: Tuesday, August 04, 2009
well, recently i just cried and i think some of my friends know the reason ba.. well, i now re-called it back so i feel that i am kinda stupid but at least i clear my doubts and also i learn that i can find some ture pals to talk about during this time..thankxs everyone who cheer me up and help me during this period... espcially yu hui and nat hehes..they are the 1st to console me..then later still have others and all of them tell me that if i need people i really can go find them de..don't need to put everything inside..so now i am back again..normal self hahas... and it really feels wonderful hahas.. i think everyone need to cry sometimes so that they can be normal back again..hahas..
well..got one bad news to most of my friends out there..i went for a eyes check last friday and do you know what result i get?? well they say there is something that is blocking my left eye so that is why i cannot really see and the people who help me do spec. also try very hard to help me adjust my left eye degree to see haiz..then this also nevermind, later i heard even worst news, because now i already seeing many blur and like got dark spot vesion so they say it may due to my medication but then they say it may get worse and i maybe will go blind for my left eye or like i can only see very very blur vesion for my left eye so i really felt dammn down during that moment and wanna find someone to chat and that is when all my alone feelings came and i cry because :
1st. i may need a lot of money to go for operation if it needed to be done
2nd. i maybe need to go back to injuction again and this really make me feel so dammn down cause i hate that needle plus medication it the worst of all because i will feel not right that day and i kept on going to the washroon to vomit loh!!
3rd. this new i still haven tell my family cause i don't wanna them to worry but still they maybe need to face it one day haiz..
4th. i maybe need to change course and i really don't want because i like my friends and classmate now and i don't want to change!!( hate changing!!)
5. if i really become blind i may a lot of money, change alot of things and everytime people will pity me!! and i just don't like that kind of feel!! because i wanna people treat me like a real friend rather then pity me then take me as a friend loh!!
So, that is about what happen this few days and also there is one good news lah, i can visit my kidney doctor once every six months lalala. so jia you ba.. i will do my very best de and i believe i can do it de^^ lalalas.. let's jia you everyone..TOGETHER^^
*exam coming soon and i am aiming to get everything for b's and a's and i will do my very best de!!^_^ lalala..* from:fangyi^^
~With Love,Fangyi~