-Visting my Grandmum-
Date: Monday, September 14, 2009
Well, yesterday i went to visit my grandmum at TTSH well, i really almost cried on the spot because it really make me feel so sad. why does we need to be old leh? why does we need to be so sickly leh.. human are really poor thing.
My grandmum she just couldn't do anything and so she just had to use her voice to cry like a baby and also complained about it to us that how pain she is really i feel so helpless that time that i couldn' do anything..it is like so painful watching her. esp, when she just came back from taking of x-rays, she need to be move from one bed to another and you know what! she kept on crying for help and screaming in pain i really feel like i wanna ran over there and scream at them saying why are you all so cruel my grandmum is so old le, so can you all stop treating her like this! i really cried seriously in my heart and after she had moved to her own bed, i faster ran over and take a look at her and i can see that she really cried and also she look so skinny so poor thing..i reAlly wanna help her but i couldn't do anything... So i just had to make her laugh again and also like trying to make her eat because she is so skinny and she need energy so she must eat!! but haiz.. she just take a few slips and say she is full and i know her situation because i had been throught her situation before and i know that when you are like that you doesn't have any mood to eat or play.. just wanna get home faster but haiz.. now i am ok le.. i really hope that and prey very hard that i wanna all the people around me to be safe and also be health and i really don't mind to give up my life, my health i just wanna everyone to be happy. i am thinking why not let me suffer rather than seing people around me suffer at least now i know what i can d and must do so i wouldn't make my family and friends worry..
I just know that i had to endure cause if you endure, everything will be over soon, i even told my mum this, when i am old right i will straight tell my children that just let me die or kill me i don't wanna suffer anymore.. cause i know it so heartpain to see people suffering!! So ya, now i am making this kind of speech please everyone try to care for each other and also help each other hahahs.. i just know that if the love can spread it will be better !! -Fangyi(^>^) <3
~With Love,Fangyi~