-What's real?-
Date: Monday, October 26, 2009
Well, now i am wondering really do people put different mask when they see ecah other? because today my gem course taugh me that actually life is like a stage and the people are the actors or actress and this really make me wonder a lot so people around me they put on their mask or? i know sometimes i does put it on because i am still that defensive fangyi who is still afraid being hurt by people. I really don't like to put on mask infornt of all my friends esp., those friends that i really wanna get close to but i just can't because like what the teacherhad say, when they closer they get to you, the more you will push them away until you really really think that you can trust them.
Well, i don't really wanna be like what the teacher had say i wanna show that i can be my true self to everyone but i know it hard esp., when you just know someone.. and you really wanna leave the very good impression of you so that is why i really felt so hard to have my real self to show to others when you meet them and doesn't even know them!!
Well, today i also learn that there are four main type of people in this world, the choingster, the slow one, the happy go lucky one and also the planner!! well, it really make me thinks a lot because from what i had learn actually i am a combine of all of them when i am in different situation hehes.. like when in family, when with friends, and also in project and stuff lols.. it really make me wanna learn and explore more of myself!! hehes.. i really cannot wait!! but haiz.. i still have the monday blue but i kept on telling myself not to have it and be cheerful because it is a brand new day, a brand new start^^
So, another piece of goody news^^ i now have job^^ lalala..no need to worry about money le. and i will be working at swense hehes i know the spelling is wrong but i know you know can le..hehes.. and i am so so happy..well, this is anothet side of me.. the happy go lucky one..i just know that now i have job and also pay so i need to be happy and don't think so much about no money to spend^^ lols. and btw..i also make a plan about my saving le and i decided to only use 5 dollar a day!! so that i can save!! so friends please do tell me to spend less and save more^^ thankxs ya.. night everyone^^ love all of you(^>^) sweetest dreamz^^ lalalas....
- fangyi
~With Love,Fangyi~