I wonder why everyone is falling sick but why am i the worst, i got a cough and fever with flu, didn't recover! Still nevermind, why do i always ends up with so much medication to take? i just hate it! i hate this sickly body of mine! HATE IT!
now, i am sick, so i need to like take medication every now and then! it really making me more sick then ever! i just wish i could have my normal body back, the one, that can run can do anything, that adult doesn't stop you to do! I really miss my previous lifestyle, as i can go swimming or running whenever i want to, whenever i feel likes! But, now with this sickly body, what am i suppose to do? i wanna go running again, but, my stamina has dropped, cause two years had not run le.. Totally stress and tired that why must i be like that?
So, people, often look at me like you look health ma, why cannot do this, do that, people often ask me question that i really hate to answer! but why, why must i suffer? is it my fate? Is it my path? i am not sure anymore, really, this life, i wanna do something that is for me ! Only for me! but, often when i do something, i will ask, do this help others! why must i ask, why i can't just do it? I hate myself, being so nice to others, i wish sometimes, i can be bad too, so they understand, it not always good to be nice to other! Especially when people take your kindness as granted! i Just hate this kind of people! HATE THEM!!
Okay, that's all, i am relieve now, because, i finally say what i want! hehes.. thankxs ya, blog, for letting me speak what i want! Thankxs!!^^
~With Love,Fangyi~
